There are those periods when our hearts happen to be absorbed
in things and become blemished or darkened, but we are still aware
of ourselves; such as when some form of greed, hatred, or delusion
comes up. Although we know that these things are objectionable, we
are unable to prevent them from arising. Could it be said that even
as we are aware of them, this is providing the basis for increased
clinging and attachment and maybe is putting us further back to where
we started from?
Answer:
That's it! One must keep knowing them at that point, that's
the method of practice.
Q:
I mean that simultaneously we are both aware of them and repelled
by them, but lacking the ability to resist them, they just burst forth.
A:
By then, it's already beyond one's capability to do anything. At
that point one has to readjust oneself and then continue contemplation. Don't
just give up on them there and then. When one sees things arise in
that way one tends to get upset or feel regret, but it is possible
to say that they are uncertain and subject to change. What happens
is that one sees these things are wrong, but one is still not ready
or able to deal with them. It's as if they are independent entities,
the leftover karmic tendencies that are still creating and conditioning
the state of the heart. One doesn't wish to allow the heart to become
like that, but it does and it indicates that one's knowledge and awareness
is still neither sufficient nor fast enough to keep abreast of things.
One must practice and develop mindfulness as much as one can in order
to gain a greater and more penetrating awareness. Whether the heart
is soiled or blemished in some way, it doesn't matter, whatever comes
up one should contemplate the impermanence and uncertainty of it.
By maintaining this contemplation at each instant that something arises,
after some time one will see the impermanent nature inherent in all
sense objects and mental states. Because one sees them as such, gradually
they will lose their importance and one's clinging and attachment
to that which is a blemish on the heart will continue to diminish. Whenever
suffering arises one will be able to work through it and readjust
oneself, but one shouldn't give up on this work or set it aside. One
must keep up a continuity of effort and try to make one's awareness
fast enough to keep in touch with the changing mental conditions. It
could be said that so far one's development of the Path still lacks
sufficient energy to overcome the mental defilements. Whenever suffering
arises the heart becomes clouded over, but one must keep developing
that knowledge and understanding of the clouded heart; that is what
one reflects on.
One must really take hold of it and repeatedly contemplate that this
suffering and discontentment is just not a sure thing. It is something
that is ultimately impermanent, unsatisfactory, and not-self. Focusing
on these three characteristics, whenever these conditions of suffering
arise again one will know them straightaway, having experienced them
before.
Gradually, little by little, one's practice should gain momentum and
as time passes, whatever sense objects and mental states arise will
lose their value in this way. One's heart will know them for what
they are and accordingly put them down. Having reached the point where
one is able to know things and put them down with ease, they say that
the path has matured internally and one will have the ability to swiftly
bear down upon the defilements. From then on there will just be the
arising and passing away in this place, the same as waves striking
the seashore. When a wave comes in and finally reaches the shoreline,
it just disintegrates and vanishes; a new wave comes and it happens
again - the wave going no further than the limit of the shoreline. In
the same way, nothing will be able to go beyond the limits established
by one's own awareness.
That's the place where one will meet and come to understand impermanence,
unsatisfactoriness and not-self. It is there that things will vanish
- the three characteristics of impermanence, unsatisfactoriness and
not self are the same as the seashore, and all sense objects and mental
state that are experiences go in the same way as the waves. Happiness
is uncertain, it's arisen many times before. Suffering is uncertain,
it's arisen many times before; that's the way they are. In one's heart
one will know that they are like that, they are ''just that much''. The
heart will experience these conditions in this way and they will gradually
keep losing their value and importance. This is talking about the
characteristics of the heart, the way it is, it is the same for everybody,
even the Buddha and all his disciples were like this.
If one's practice of the Path matures it will become automatic and
it will no longer be dependent on anything external. When a defilement
arises, one will immediately be aware of it and accordingly be able
to counteract it. However, that stage when they say that the Path
is still not mature enough nor fast enough to overcome the defilements
is something that everybody has to experience - it's unavoidable.
But it is at that point where one must use skillful reflection. Don't
go investigating elsewhere or trying to solve the problem at some
other place. Cure it right there. Apply the cure at that place where
things arise and pass away. Happiness arises and then passes away,
doesn't it? Suffering arises and then passes away, doesn't it? One
will continuously be able to see the process of arising and ceasing,
and see that which is good and bad in the heart. These are phenomena
that exist and are part of nature. Don't cling tightly to them or
create anything out of them at all.
If one has this kind of awareness, then even though one will be coming
into contact with things, there will not be any noise. In other words,
one will see the arising and passing away of phenomena in a very natural
and ordinary way. One will just see things arise and then cease. One
will understand the process of arising and ceasing in the light of
impermanence, unsatisfactoriness, and not-self.
The nature of the Dhamma is like this. When one can see things as
''just that much'', then they will remain as ''just that much''. There
will be none of that clinging or holding on - as soon as one becomes
aware of attachment it will disappear. There will be just the arising
and ceasing and that is peaceful. That it's peaceful is not because
one doesn't hear anything; there is the hearing, but one understands
the nature of it and doesn't cling or hold on to anything. This is
what they mean by peaceful - the heart is still experiencing sense
objects, but it doesn't follow or get caught up in them. A division
is made between the heart sense objects and the defilements. When
one's heart comes into contact with a sense object and there is an
emotional reaction of liking, this gives rise to defilement; but if
one understands the process of arising and ceasing, then there is
nothing that can really arise from it - it will end just there.
Q:
Does one have to practise and gain samādhi before
one can contemplate the Dhamma?
A:
Here one can say that's correct from one point of view, but talking
about it from the aspect of practice, then paññā has
to come first, but following the conventional framework it has to
be sīla, samādhi and then paññā. If
one is truly practising the Dhamma, then paññā comes
first. If paññā is there from the beginning, it means
that one knows that which is right and that which is wrong; and one
knows the heart that is calm and the heart that is disturbed and agitated. Talking
from the scriptural basis, one has to say that the practice of restraint
and composure will give rise to a sense of shame and fear of any form
of wrong doing that potentially may arise. Once one has established
the fear of that which is wrong and one is no longer acting or behaving
wrongly, then that which is a wrong will not be present within one.
When there is no longer anything wrong present within, this provides
the conditions from which calm will arise in its place. That calm
forms a foundation from which samādhi will grow and
develop over time.
When the heart is calm, that knowledge and understanding which arises
from within that calm is called vipassanā. This means that
from moment to moment there is a knowing in accordance with the truth,
and within this are contained different properties. If one was to
set them down on paper they would be sīla, samādhi
and paññā. Talking about them, one can bring them together
and say that these three dhammas form one mass and are inseparable. But
if one was to talk about them as different properties, then it would
be correct to say sīla, samādhi and paññā.
However, if one was acting in an unwholesome way, it would be impossible
for the heart to become calm. So it would be most accurate to see
them as developing together and it would be right to say that this
is the way that the heart will become calm. Talking about the practice
of samādhi, it involves preserving sīla,
which includes looking after the sphere of one's bodily actions and
speech, in order not to do anything which is unwholesome or would
lead one to remorse or suffering. This provides the foundation for
the practice of calm and once one has a foundation in calm this in
turn provides a foundation which supports the arising of paññā.
In formal teaching they emphasize the importance of sīla. Ādikalyāna,
majjhekalyāna, pariyosānakalyāna
- the practice should be beautiful in the beginning, beautiful in
the middle and beautiful in the end. This is how it is. Have you ever
practised samādhi?
Q:
I am still learning. The day after I went to see Tan Ajahn at
Wat Keu-an my aunt brought a book containing some of your teaching
for me to read. That morning at work I started to read some passages
which contained questions and answers to different problems. In it
you said that the most important point was for the heart to watch
over and observe the process of cause and effect that takes place
within. Just to watch and maintain the knowing of the different things
that come up.
That afternoon I was practising meditation and during the sitting,
the characteristics that appeared were that I felt as though my body
had disappeared. I was unable to feel the hands or legs and there
were no bodily sensations. I knew that the body was still there, but
I couldn't feel it. In the evening I had the opportunity to go and
pay respects to Tan Ajahn Tate and I described to him the details
of my experience. He said that these were the characteristics of the
heart that appear when it unifies in samādhi, and that
I should continue practising. I had this experience only once; on
subsequent occasions I found that sometimes I was unable to feel only
certain areas of the body, such as the hands, whereas in other areas
there was still feeling. Sometimes during my practice I start to wonder
whether just sitting and allowing the heart to let go of everything
is the correct way to practice; or else should I think over and occupy
myself with the different problems or unanswered questions concerning
the Dhamma, which I still have.
A:
It's not necessary to keep going over or adding anything on at
this stage. This is what Tan Ajahn Tate was referring to; one must
not repeat or add on to that which is there already. When that particular
kind of knowing is present, it means that the heart is calm and it
is that state of calm which one must observe. Whatever one feels,
whether it feels like there is a body or a self or not, this is not
the important point. It should all come within the field on one's
awareness. These conditions indicate that the heart is calm and has
unified in samādhi.
When the heart has unified for a long period, for a few times, then
there will be a change in the conditions and they say that one withdraws.
That state is called appanāsamādhi (absorption)
and having entered the heart will subsequently withdraw. In fact,
although it would not be incorrect to say that the heart withdraws,
it doesn't actually withdraw. Another way is to say that it flips
back, or that it changes, but the style used by most teachers is to
say that once the heart has reached the state of calm, then it will
withdraw. However, people can get caught up in disagreements over
the use of language. It can cause difficulties and one might start
to wonder, ''how on earth can it withdraw? This business of withdrawing
is just confusing!'' It can lead to much foolishness and misunderstanding
just because of the language.
What one must understand is that the way to practice is to observe
these conditions with sati-sampajañña. In accordance with
the characteristic of impermanence, the heart will turn about and
withdraw to the level of upacārasamādhi
(access concentration). If it withdraws to this level then one can
gain knowledge and understanding, because at the deeper level there
is not knowledge and understanding. If there is knowledge and understanding
at this point it will resemble sankhārā (thinking).
It will be similar to two people having a conversation and discussing
the Dhamma together. One who understands this might feel disappointed
that their heart is not really calm, but in fact this dialogue takes
place within the confines of the calm and restraint which has developed. These
are the characteristics of the heart once it has withdrawn to the
level of upacāra - there will be the ability to know
about and understand different things.
The heart will stay in this state for a period and then it will turn
inwards again. In other words, it will turn and go back into the deeper
state of calm as it was before; or it is even possible that it might
obtain purer and calmer levels of concentrated energy than was experienced
before. If it does reach such a level of concentration, one should
merely note the fact and keep observing until the time when the heart
withdraws again. Once it has withdrawn one will be able to develop
knowledge and understanding as different problems arise. Here is where
one should investigate and examine the different matters and issues
which affect the heart in order to understand and penetrate them.
Once these problems are finished with, then the heart will gradually
move inwards towards the deeper level of concentration again. The
heart will stay there and mature, freed from any other work or external
impingement. There will just be the one-point knowing and this will
prepare and strengthen one's mindfulness until the time is reached
to re-emerge.
These conditions of entering and leaving will appear in one's heart
during the practice, but this is something that is difficult to talk
about. It is not harmful or damaging to one's practice. After a period
the heart will withdraw and the inner dialogue will start in that
place, taking the form of sankhārā or mental
formations conditioning the heart. If one doesn't know that this activity
is sankhārā, one might think that it is paññā,
or that paññā is arising. One must see that this activity
is fashioning and conditioning the heart and the most important thing
about it is that it is impermanent. One must continually keep control
and not allow the heart to start following and believing in all the
different creations and stories that it cooks up. All that is just
sankhārā, it doesn't become paññā.
The way paññā develops is when one listens and knows
the heart as the process of creating and conditioning takes it in
different directions and then reflects on the instability and uncertainty
of this. The realization of its impermanence will provide the cause
by which one can let go of things at that point. Once the heart has
let go of things and put them down at that point, it will gradually
become more and more calm and steady. One must keep entering and leaving
samādhi like this and paññā will arise
at that point. There one will gain knowledge and understanding.
As one continues to practice, many different kinds of problems and
difficulties will tend to arise in the heart; but whatever problems
the world, or even the universe might bring up, one will be able to
deal with them all. One's wisdom will follow them up and find answers
for every question and doubt. Wherever one meditates, whatever thoughts
come up, whatever happens, everything will be providing the cause
for paññā to arise. This is a process that will take
place by itself, free from external influence. Paññā
will arise like this, but when it does, one should be careful not
to become deluded and see it as sankhārā. Whenever
one reflects on things and sees them as impermanent and uncertain,
then one shouldn't cling or attach to them in any way. If one keeps
developing this state, when paññā is present in the
heart, it will take the place of one's normal way of thinking and
reacting and the heart will become fuller and brighter in the centre
of everything. As this happens - one knows and understands all things
as they really are - one's heart will be able to progress with meditation
in the correct way and without being deluded. That is how it should
be.